Late last autumn, I unexpectedly began channeling conversations with my Higher Self and guides. I had just completed my first book, Spiritual Quintessence: Spiritual Quotes and Commentaries to Enhance your Spiritual Gifts – and instead of feeling celebratory over the accomplishment, I felt myself assailed by doubts as I wondered how I could make my message heard. So I was typing my frustrations into my laptop when suddenly, I became aware of promptings of a response that did not seem to be coming from me. So I typed out the responses and soon found myself in conversation – with my Higher Self and guides. These conversations throughout the winter became the basis for my 2nd book and workbook: Conversations with my Self, released earlier this summer. This book helps the individual move into higher self awareness by removing the blocks we as a world society inadvertently place in front of our direct access to our divine being.
I still have these conversations, usually when I am feeling stuck. With my new-found authorship, I have embarked on a journey to not only continue to grow myself to come closer to experiencing my divine being, but to help others on their path as well. My goal is to be a best-selling author, to spread this message of how to step into our divinity, to become sovereign beings, and Master Stewards of and for our Earth Mother. So this is my journey. This is an uncomfortable journey for me, as I view myself as almost a recluse, valuing my privacy, my quiet, boring life. I’d rather talk to the trees and rocks than talk to groups of people. So here I am, and this is my journey.
As I mentioned above, I often have conversations when I am feeling down and/or full of doubt, despite my knowing my low feelings are all a result of me just pulling negativity to me. Below is one such conversation. I have found my Higher Self to have a keen sense of humor during some of these exchanges. Below, I am almost tricked out of my low feelings….
(me): I am feeling a little depressed right now… I am concerned about all the publicity and social media I must engage in with promoting my book. It is scary to me and I worry about being adequate in the public sense. I feel heavy hearted. I also feel split between starting this business venture and the obligations of being at the nature center (where I work two days a week). While I love it and support it, I can’t help feeling disappointed in my duties there; it is far from fulfilling. I feel sad about this, too.
Are you there?
Higher Self(HS): We are always here.
(me): What shall I do with all this?
(me): I feel I have been patient; now I feel sad and overwhelmed.
(HS): We are always here to help you.
(me): How can you help?
(HS): Listen closely. We will help empower you. We stand fully behind you. Know we are always present, it is in everyone’s best interest for you to succeed. You will see. Cheer up we are here. Listen for us. We love and cherish you.
(me): Can you give me any information on Galen, my lost parrot.
(HS): We cannot help you there.
(me): But I mmiss him still. (beginning to cry)
(HS): You will have another deeper friend. Galen is where he needs to be.
(me): Is this friend human or animal?
Besides Kenn? (My husband)
(HS): Besides Kenn.
(me): Will you tell me human or animal?
(me): Spirit or material?
(me): Is this a game?
(HS): Only if you make it so.
(me): You are funny.
(HS): Made you smile.